I’m failing these days at getting my gratitude list posted – evidenced by the fact that I have about 100 things un-posted on my list.
So, I sit here blogging a draft on Friday so that on Monday morning I can open up the internet, and publish with no delay. In a sense, I’m staking out my space for this post early. I don’t often do this, but it is the only way to make this gratitude list thing happen, and it is important to me. Don’t worry, I’ll only post some of the highlights because it is just too many for one post.
Do you ever find yourself uncomfortable and at odds with so much in and of the world? That is me this week – uncomfortable and not fitting in. Seeing and hearing those around me and wondering why I can’t connect with so many of them. Why is it that only those who share faith seem to have any value for me? Why is that so evident this particular week?Is my world view really so different that it causes these rifts with people who are practically strangers to me? Are people uncomfortable with me (and me with them) because my approach is somehow wrong? Do they reject me because I deserve it and I’m offensive and I’m too mired in my own sin to know it? Is my heart harboring some undisclosed sin that has set me on edge? Am I just a failure at doing the right thing at the right time for the right reason and that causes strangers to reject me and offer up rudeness?
Or, is this a disconnect with the world caused by a strong connect with Jesus? I hope that’s the answer, but I must ask further.
Are these feelings coming from the fact that when I am out and about in the world some of the folks I interact with just don’t see things the same as I don because they don’t have eyes for Jesus? Are the priorities I have in Jesus so different from those of the world that even how to deal with a barking dog or a review of documents is approached in a profoundly different manner?
Is it okay to just go forward in what I believe is a God honoring way and allow those who are uncomfortable to go their own way?
How do I minister to those who don’t see Jesus if I just continue on with what I believe is right and good and don’t pause to know them? But how do I know them if what I believe is so offensive to them that they won’t get to know me?
They really don’t need to get to know me, it is Jesus they need.
How do I take “I” out of the equation and make it all Jesus?
I know it is possible to reach out and honor Jesus – I must reach out to honor Jesus. But how? How to do that in a culture that is so inflamed with rejection of what is right in the eyes of the Lord is something I will be contemplating for a long time.
The list grows, and I thank God it does because when facing questions and contemplations the list is often my assurance that He’s right there providing what is needed when it is needed, and the same will be true of the answers to my questions – what is needed when it is needed. Until then, hang – no cling – to the love evidence that is already here:
1383. the match of my skills and past experiences with Andy’s current office needs – it really is amazing when all listed out.
1394. Camping with our Bible Study families
1398. J’s love of singing
1405. Laughing at J’s antics – his humor
1411. Blue birds flitting through the steam of thermals at Yellowstone – will they stay all year?
1425. Unexpected time for art
1437. Good progress (victories along the way) in a case with a client who needs encouragement
1443, J and his friend playing – the sounds of their laughter and conversations
1446. Apples from our tree making treats and sauce
1448. Beautiful colors along the path and creek as we climb up to Lava Lake
1449. Forgiveness for a hardened heart (and the resulting softening)
1450. Good response to a gift given
1451. The beginning of a new karate adventure
1452. New clients to keep our business going
1453. Progress on the kitchen floors
1454. New couple/old friends to join our Bible study
1455. Bison meat by the case with no cost to us.
1456. Pants that fit nicely and wear well.
1457. Andy and Daniel W.’s continued success as a racing team
1458. J’s handling of his knee pain and the hope of a doctor’s consultation by the end of the week
1459. Challenges in dealing with others to teach me to look to Jesus